Parkr's Place

I’ve been a bad dada by not posting on this for you. The end of April was around finals week and I got really busy with that and work. Then dada and mama took a much needed vacation (away from work but we didn’t end up going anywhere). We did go to Park City overnight and you slept at grandma Bergeson’s house. She just loves you like you can’t even imagine. While she won’t just come out and admit it, I don’t think I’m her “baby” any more.

I can believe I’m 30 now. I know you might think that’s really, REALLY old, and in some ways it is, but I can’t say I feel old.

I’ve got to get to bed as I have to go to the doctor to have an allergy test before my operation. The operation’s not a big deal, dada’s nose has been hurt for a long time and I can’t breathe very well so someone’s going to fix it for me. I probably won’t be very playful for a couple of days and I know you won’t understand, but I’ll buy you a new baby Einstein that we can sit and watch together while dada rests.
I had an some issues that required me to go into work today (first Sunday I’ve worked in years) and when I left it was after sacrament was served in church. When I left you started crying and calling out “daaadaaa” and “maaadaaadaaaa” and it just broke my heart, but at the same time it made me feel good to know that I you missed me.

Sometimes just knowing that I matter to you is enough to get me through my hard times.

Updates to laugh at….
So I thought I would give you some one liners that you could look back on and laugh at. They might be little thoughts in my head, things that might date me like news and technology bits.
You might just roll your eyes at some of this but hey, when you get older you might find this interesting.

• Love my iPod nano…6GB and its small.
• The show “24” just owns me and your mom…we can’t get enough of it.
• Your mom likes America Idol, I can’t stand it.
• I use a Blackberry Pearl and an HTC 8525 windows mobile device. Which one I use really depends on what I have to do that day or my mood.
• Work give me a free subscription to Napster online….hey, it’s free.
• I use Windows Vista Business with Office 2007 which I got free from beta testing.
• I want a Mac but don’t have the money, better spent on your toys.
• I don’t have an HDTV yet and I’m not happy about it.
• I just shaved my head again and your mom hates it. I look OK with hair but it’s too thick to manage it how I’d like, which is not at all.
• I have a ton of grey hair and in my chin scruff as well, but I still have all my hair which is the important part.


More to come…..

So you’re starting to walk now, it’s just unreal how much you’re learning and taking everything in around you. It doesn’t seem that long ago when I was attempting to sleep on a very uncomfortable couch in the hospital wondering how the heck to be a dad to the little boy sleeping in this little cart next to your mom while she was recovering from a long and tiring labor. I know I’m going to blink and you’re going to be going to your first day of school. You’ll grow up strong and healthy and sooner or later you’ll move out and be on your own. I probably won’t be as cool to you then as I am now, no matter how old I get I will miss this time with you, I know I will.

I work for a very large company in the telecommunication industry and have been for about 7 years now. I manage a good group of guys who can really be difficult at times, and with customers never being happy I sometimes take it home with me when I shouldn’t. One day last week I was just so tired (I’d worked about 10 hours that day) and when I walked in from work I just wanted to get my homework done and go to bed. You are usually in the main living room waiting for me, ready to greet me with this huge smile. When I came home you were ready to play and I wasn’t. I said “hi” to you but I didn’t pick you up. I was completely oblivious to the look you gave me, like you had done something wrong. Your Mom brought you down stairs where I was reading to give me a hug and kiss goodnight and you didn’t put your arms out to get me like you normally do. I didn’t think too much of it until you were asleep and I realized I didn’t really see you smile all day except for when I got home.

..and it broke my heart.

No matter what I did I couldn’t go back to that time when daddy didn’t pick you up and let you know that it wasn’t your fault. The thought of hurting you like that is a very difficult thing for me to accept.

I’m so sorry.

Let’s go to the park on my next day off. Dada will turn off his blackberry and we’ll lose track of time sliding, swinging, and maybe dada will cheat and get us some ice cream at Farr’s Ice Cream shop. Trust me, you’ll like it. O man, you haven’t even had dada’s favorite yet…Cheesecake!
So many things to do…thanks for choosing to do them with us.

Kiddie Kandids
So there’s this place called Kiddie Kandids where they take cute pictures of little kids with props and all kinds of stuff. Your Mom can’t get enough of this place, and takes you there about every 3-5 months to get your picture taken. Now, I don’t know what will be considered “expensive” when you get to reading this, but suffice it to say that when your Mom goes to Kiddie, she’s goes BIG, and big is, well, $140 a pop these days. Now, this wouldn’t be so bad if there was a place for dada to sit, but there never is…NEVER. It’s always packed with people and I end up standing for about an hour and a half, no biggie if you weren’t the biggest one year old in the world, but you are, just ask dada’s back.

I will say though, the end result is worth it. This is you sporting your first easter outfit. I dont know if you got this from me or not but man you're a handsome kid.

What a day.

So you got your tubes in today (I was a day off, that’s why dada married mama). We had to be at the hospital at 6:45. I thought you were going to be a handful today but you were so cool through the whole thing. This old guy did took you from us and I thought your mom was going to start crying for sure, but he just carted you away in this little wagon and kept saying “toot, toot” as he took you into surgery (wagons don’t make that noise but more on that later  ). When I get my new scanner I will post the polorid the nurse took of you, it’s too precious for words…I mean, you looked like a frickin STUD.

When he wheeled you back it struck me how comfortable you were with the nurses and doctors when we weren’t in the room holding you. You have none of the bias and prejudice that we grownups have, you trust without prejudice or bias.
I wish I could remember….

I don’t know if I should bore you with how my days go at work everyone once and awhile or not. I mean, I have some funny stories but they might only be funny to me, who knows?

We’ll see tomorrow,
J

So dada's picked the final four and two perfectly...only one more game to go. I wonder if these things will still be around when you get older, my guess is they will. You know mama's going to take over the big screen downstaird so dada will be up stairs watching it on the crappy TV, and its not even in HD....its terrible, trust me.

GO FLORIDA!!!

So there’s this show called “Live with Regis and Kelly” that your mom wanted to send your picture into for some contest. It was some contest where the show was judging the cutest baby in the world. Your mom for some reason never got around to sending the picture but I’m telling you, we would have been a lock for sure! Those blue eyes are insane, you got them from my Mom so later on when the girls are giving you all the attention you can thank her. Also, if you get cubby around the midsection, you can thank me.

It’s a Monday so your great grandma’s here watching you while I went and ran some errands (ps. women drive like crap but more on that later). I wanted to go work out at this overpriced gym I have a membership to but too much to do. Tomorrow you’re going to get tubes in your ears for all the ear infections you’ve had, bummer deal I know. My prediction is you’re going to be ticked about it, but it’s for your own good and we asked 3 doctors before we decided to do it so were blaming them.

So much to tell you about what's going on in the world. I can't wait till we can sit on the couch and just talk for hours and hours about nothing.

Patiently waiting....